fall

the days of confusion have started messing with my mind
settling in my head, making my screams silent once again
overanalyzing anything in my way
killing whatever's beautiful, I live to slay
waiting in vain for the impossible
longing for a touch that doesn't exist
hoping reality is what I dream
waking to the torture of just being me
the days of confusion are here again
tormenting every heartbeat
suffocating every breath
falling every second
silencing every cry
...vanished.

balance

What was once written as truth might be a lie as times pass

What was once a time of lies might be the truth of what is now

Now might be different from what you thought before

But nothing will ever change if you don't start from within

Inside might be fighting its way out

While the outside fights to protect the core of you

Don't expose yourself to the light too soon

But don't dwell and rot in darkness

Don't stand still and let life pass you by

Don't rush through life to get ahead

Knowing too much may harm you at first

Knowing too little will harm your future

Don't you dare fall, you'll be seen as weak

Don't ever ask for help, you'll be seen as weak

Let yourself fall, to fail is to learn

Let yourself get helped, to reach is to receive

...Balance.

within a minute

I want to get away
Being stuck in everyday routines isn't enough anymore
Why even settle?
(Every day is the same, and you never see me like you should)
I wish myself away
Being the one unwanted is too much right now
Why even bother?
(Every breakdown makes me die, and you always see me as I was before)
I can't get away
Being as I am is a safety I can't break
Why even wish?
(Every chance I get, I blow, because I can't get out of my tracks)
I'm so far away
Being in a place I call happiness
Why ever come back?
(Goodbye)

suffocation of reality

the air is too hot, you're burning

whatever you do, you're learning

one thing to change the other

one breath too many, will smother

not good enough to fail

not wise enough to bail

too slow to catch up

too fast to ever stop

too much to take in

too much to feel in your skin

waiting for the break

dreading the coming ache

oh, what a pity

it's suffocation of reality

Kiss In May

The first spark, to ignite
The warmth, the will to fight
The joy, radiating through
The eyes, alive because of you
The air, refreshing and sweet
The way you swept me off my feet
The laughs, the smile that is real
The way you make me feel
The words, you tenderly say
The neverending kiss in May

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let the cold embrace you and slow you down

let the thoughts that control you stop spinning you around

let your goals be acheived, with your mission in sight

let your dreams of tomorrow fly through the night

let the memories of times past make you smile

let yourself stop, and think for a while

let someone in and let them know

what's going on in order to let go

hope, want and never give in

let the cold embrace the warmth of your skin

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A pain inside...

Punching its way out.

A mouth held closed...

Don't let anything show.

A tear in your eye...

Staining your face.

A turn of the head...

To make it go away.

A will to give in...

A wish to give up.

A fight from within...

Keeps you holding on.

Let go.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Release.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Feel.

Breathe in.

This is life.

Breathe out.

And you're a part of it.

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When sleepy eyes see a beautiful world

Why would anyone want to sleep?

When cool breezes of a crisp winter morning makes you shiver with life

Who would want a hot summers day?

When love of anything, anyone sends you flying high

Who would want to hate,

Who would want to sink,

Who would want to give up on love like that?

When sleepy eyes continue to be sleepy

Who steps in to your distorted world?

When cool breezes make the very core of you freeze

Who wouldn't long for a summers day?

When love of anything, anyone goes too far

Who wouldn't want to feel hate

To be grounded
To get back to normal again?

There are two sides to everything

Don't fall

There is failure on both sides.