ten thousand thoughts

Ten thousand thoughts spinning in my head
One of 'em is still wishing I was dead
This pain, this pressure is driving me insane
This life, this laughter, is it all in vain?

One single thought pounding in my head
You leaving me, it's the worst thing I dread
Life without you is nothing at all
Me without you will only result in a fall

All these emotions exploding within
All these tears dripping off my chin
All these words to show you what's inside
All this fear, that makes me wanna hide

One stupid question nagging at my brain
Leads to a thought, the first in a chain
Of destructive shit I can't seem to shut out
It's killing me slowly, of that there's no doubt

A million answers, but to what?
A million stories with the same plot
A million roads, where do I start?
A million beats in my shattered heart

Screams and terror fill my dreams
Real life is still filled with schemes
Pleasure and pain make the world go 'round
But you just shut up, don't make a sound

Ten thousand thoughts spinning in my head
One of 'em wondering what the hell I've just said