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envy, when seeing how you are towards others.
what did I ever do wrong?
all I ever did was love you.
even when you hurt me.
even when it killed me.
even when you couldn't have cared less.
I told you I'll be here.
still, I'm nothing to you.
you treat me like air.
you can't live without it, so start breathing me in.
I'm not going anywhere.

whatever

You love me, whatever.
You care, whatever.
You hurt me, whatever.
You hate me, whatever.
You say you're sorry, whatever.
You would die for me, whatever.

I love that you care about how you hate that you hurt me.
I forgive you, and would take any bullet meant for you.

But, yeah... Whatever.

from behind the brick wall

it's so safe here, won't you join me?

actually, please don't.

not for real.

you can be over there, see?

perfect.

everything is still safe, but i'm not alone anymore.

oh no, knocknig on the door.

please go away?

great.

wrap it up quick and sink into safeness again.

finally.

so, how are you, and don't be honest.

i love my world.

i love my brick wall.

i love the screen where you are.

i love my screen, because it's safe.

no real eyes to look at me.

no real voices to hear.

it's me, my music and a distant you.

i can't handle "in real life"

that's why...

i'll sit here.

greetings from behind the brick wall.

blame

You take the blame for things you haven't done.

You hate yourself for others mistakes.

You won't forgive yourself, even though you've done nothing wrong.

What is there to forgive?

What part of you is there to hate?

How can anyone blame you?

I forgive you for being so wonderful.

I hate you for making me so happy.

I blame you for my smiles.

Realize the truth, there is nothing but love for you.

crush

Sugary sweet words turn into tears of acid.
Burning their way to my heart.
Exposing it to you again.

Will you crush me this time?

I'm always forgiving, never forgetting.
You said sorry, so I guess it's fine?
My heart still leaks when I think of it though.

You always crush me.

Sugary acidic world of mine.
Forgetting to forgive when my heart leaks.
I guess it's fine to be exposed to you.

I will always let you crush me.

definitely maybe

How come you're so unsure depending on who I am?
Why won't you ever give me a straight answer?
Have you ever told yourself the truth?
Is happiness a choice?
If it is, why won't we choose it for ourselves?
If it isn't, how will we ever deserve it?
Your eyes can't focus, your breathing is uneven.

Your hands shake, your heart stops beating.

Your mouth might form the words, but you're always silent.
The feeling of panic when you have to decide something.

The regret after making a choice.

The question of right or wrong.
Why is it so hard?

Are you happy?

Definitely maybe.

Expectations

A thought.

Stuck.

A smile.

Struck.

Expectations that won't let you rest.

Disappointment, 'cause you'll never get the best.

You will get what you deserve.